i guess, i might know the answer deep within. mom was diagnosed with cancer and she has recover ever since. everything happened within this year and it has left our family a big lesson. to treasure each other. although she still does the housework and stuffs cos i'm being complained for wasting too much resources and time, we still try our very best to do whatever we could within our means. and more more thing! to do things without leaving for regrets. this is something we've learnt. my mom becomes more positive now and stopped whining about her life that much. my brother learns to rebel more yet at the same time, he tries to listens to my mom more.. my dad simply carries all the financial burden and the family's bulk by himself as usual. but now, we're more aware of each other and tries to encourage each other rather than just sneering at each other or simply ignore. even so, i guess i'm more skinned through over my trip in japan plus the 6 months worth of saga.