Wednesday, October 25, 2006
well, once i thought since fate has decreed its usefulness, a repeat will never happen. i guess.. i'm wrong.
thinking if things just past by like that, it will be ok since we don't provoke it or something.. oh well, it never turns out the way we want it to be.. barely! the possibilities? probably like finding a lost ring in the middle of a secondary jungle. either you're lucky and get one more chance finding it in your pocket or its not yours forever. things just goes around that way. well, not to mention, there might be a probability that your find might find it for you. ahahaha.. reminds me of the time when i was in japan, i lost marcus' tripod after carrying it around with me for 5 days. its huge so, the probability of losing it is 0.753% yet, that 0.753% works and i lost it! it was just excruciating and finding a huge thing like that shouldn't be too hard, but it is. i didn't lose it in our apartment or nearby.. i don't even remember how i lose it. after weeks of getting really busy and not think about it, the day to fly back to singapore gets nearer too. yet, there's still no news of it~ well, though it was marcus' but i feel the stress rather than himself. he appears alright in all aspects and him being oblivious about it just puts me off. the last night, while i was packing and the chukyo guys came over to our apartment, i asked kenken to buy milk since i went hungry for 2 days without food. ehehe, i spent all my money by then~ anyways, marcus went along with him. they came back and marcus was jumping with joy, i asked what happened, he showed me the tripod!! i was like, "Where?!" and he told me, i left in the 99yen shop. i was elated and grateful! i asked how did he find it and he told me that while he was paying, he say a huge black bag and it seems to fit only the shape of a tripod. he asked the cashier boy if its lost and found, and the guy says yes. he verified it and took it back. amen?! well.. its really was a close shave, just hours before we leave japan for singapore, we found it. oh well.. from then on, i tell myself.. i'm gonna use my own tripod next time.. ahahaha~~
well, a twist of fate, i found what i lost.
i've been here for 20 days and i'm leaving this friday night. its been some time i've stayed here for than two weeks. i can't seem to live well with my family, i guess i am really cut for living alone.. not in solitude but at least, i know thats my thing. i felt free whenever i'm alone or in a quiet environment. strange enough, people find me talkative and noisy and stuffs though.. i am a quiet person though!! whenever i'm shin's house, i just talk to myself or keep quiet and listens. living in my own thoughts and own world and own self will. i guess i just love myself sometimes.. ahahaha..
the frogs are croaking again!! i just hate them!! i hate lizards too~ and spiders and worms!! though i just freak out but i won't go jumping around like some of those girls...
tonight, i'm gonna sleep in song's room.. he went back to his apartment and i can finally occupy his room!!! ahh~~ a night without mosquitoes~~~
ooh!! i talked to cara today on msn.. i'm really grateful that at least, i've still have a classmate who still talks to me~~ happy happy~~ and its cara somemore!!
liten shan@
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