Tuesday, October 31, 2006
wootage~
i'm back in singapore now and the past 24 days in malaysia was incredible. somehow, everything seems like a dream. the events that happened, the people that i see, everything.
the first day i was there, i had a 12 hour train ride, the longest i had so far. there was an engine error(sounds like some game error..) somewhere near tampin and the delay took 3 hours. at the same time, song and shin got lost with directions and that took them hours too... so it was all okay~~ we then went to midvalley for breakfast at cjade express and it was my treat!! i felt so bad... anyways, it was all good. we had to catch a movie cos it was simply so cheap~~ it was a great day...
then.. the following days wasn't any bad.. there was a lot of family gatherings and stuffs and it was either good or bad.. nothing much to comment about it anymore since i've made my piece. and for the other days, stuffs happened and things that are unavoidable remains unavoidable. sometimes, you wish things are suppose to be straight and smooth cos, the rough edges has simply tortured and turmoiled us for years. yet, it happened. 4th uncle gets locked up for his mental condition. i don't like him yet i felt pity. things happens and you know, everyone felt helpless and decided, this is his fate.
i went house visiting and 2nd aunt's house is big and spacy!! it was sooooo comfortable since i didn't like her old house that much. now, i don't mind staying longer.
well, i took a bus back to singapore and it took me about 4 to 5 hours ride. it was good!! cos i didn't stress myself too much though wierd old man seems to talk to me a lot. bah!! it was creepy eh!! i reached singapore custom at around 4am and saw my mom and dad standing near the bridge. it was so hilarious since mom didn't expect me to walk that path. i was like, "hey! i've walked thru the entire custom so many times before!! you're probably the one that doesn't know!!!" ahaha~ it ended off well anyways.
well, i met up with sinlee on sunday and probably today again~~ on sunday, we saw a woman with horribly huge eyes walking towards us. we were like, omg, why is she staring at us. when she walked behind us, since we were sitting down, she called out.. "sansan and sinlee!!" we were like.. what the.... how would he know... COMMON FRIEND SOMEMORE?!! she introduced herself, "hey!! i'm fauzi!!!" sinlee and i looked at each other in astonishment. we were practically stunned! it was a guy who turned gay. we dismiss the thought and talked to him for a bit.
sinlee told me.. terence, our band senior and a pretty good friend of mine, is registering for marriage. i was like, HE'S ONLY TWENTY THREE!! i was just practically shocked!! wow! and he still remembers me. good~ the invites, i was hoping to be there yet, i'm scared. ahaha~
hmm... yesterday, i went to suki sushi with mio. we gobbled down our food so fast and we ordered too much!! it was so bad that mio went to the restroom to puke. ahaha~ we then headed to the arcade and played some games. it was all good!!
sinlee just called me and i guess we'll head out to pepper lunch today for our dinner..
liten shan@
4:43 PM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
well, once i thought since fate has decreed its usefulness, a repeat will never happen. i guess.. i'm wrong.
thinking if things just past by like that, it will be ok since we don't provoke it or something.. oh well, it never turns out the way we want it to be.. barely! the possibilities? probably like finding a lost ring in the middle of a secondary jungle. either you're lucky and get one more chance finding it in your pocket or its not yours forever. things just goes around that way. well, not to mention, there might be a probability that your find might find it for you. ahahaha.. reminds me of the time when i was in japan, i lost marcus' tripod after carrying it around with me for 5 days. its huge so, the probability of losing it is 0.753% yet, that 0.753% works and i lost it! it was just excruciating and finding a huge thing like that shouldn't be too hard, but it is. i didn't lose it in our apartment or nearby.. i don't even remember how i lose it. after weeks of getting really busy and not think about it, the day to fly back to singapore gets nearer too. yet, there's still no news of it~ well, though it was marcus' but i feel the stress rather than himself. he appears alright in all aspects and him being oblivious about it just puts me off. the last night, while i was packing and the chukyo guys came over to our apartment, i asked kenken to buy milk since i went hungry for 2 days without food. ehehe, i spent all my money by then~ anyways, marcus went along with him. they came back and marcus was jumping with joy, i asked what happened, he showed me the tripod!! i was like, "Where?!" and he told me, i left in the 99yen shop. i was elated and grateful! i asked how did he find it and he told me that while he was paying, he say a huge black bag and it seems to fit only the shape of a tripod. he asked the cashier boy if its lost and found, and the guy says yes. he verified it and took it back. amen?! well.. its really was a close shave, just hours before we leave japan for singapore, we found it. oh well.. from then on, i tell myself.. i'm gonna use my own tripod next time.. ahahaha~~
well, a twist of fate, i found what i lost.
i've been here for 20 days and i'm leaving this friday night. its been some time i've stayed here for than two weeks. i can't seem to live well with my family, i guess i am really cut for living alone.. not in solitude but at least, i know thats my thing. i felt free whenever i'm alone or in a quiet environment. strange enough, people find me talkative and noisy and stuffs though.. i am a quiet person though!! whenever i'm shin's house, i just talk to myself or keep quiet and listens. living in my own thoughts and own world and own self will. i guess i just love myself sometimes.. ahahaha..
the frogs are croaking again!! i just hate them!! i hate lizards too~ and spiders and worms!! though i just freak out but i won't go jumping around like some of those girls...
tonight, i'm gonna sleep in song's room.. he went back to his apartment and i can finally occupy his room!!! ahh~~ a night without mosquitoes~~~
ooh!! i talked to cara today on msn.. i'm really grateful that at least, i've still have a classmate who still talks to me~~ happy happy~~ and its cara somemore!!
liten shan@
10:12 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006
i feel so miserable now. my cellphone is spoilt...
:(
liten shan@
12:42 AM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
i feel miserable now. totally worn in and out.
dont' talk to me..
liten shan@
1:26 AM
Friday, October 13, 2006
last night was shin's birthday alongside with people like riang's boyfriend and siew's friend. its a triple birthday celebration and it was so cool and at the same time, HILARIOUS. ziqin treated us to the spread of iced drinks and ice cream. it was all good since we do not have to pay. shin and i sits quietly in one corner laughing away in our own world. seemingly, we tends to annoy each other lots yet we understands each other bests~~
hmm.. i'm worried about my school stuffs. especially when mio messages me, the cruel reality hits my back real hard enough to shred my escapade into pieces. i need to head back soon yet i'm soooooo afraid of going back to the same lifestyle. i need to see a doctor soon before i really go mad.
happy belated birthday shin!!
waits quietly for a breakthrough... *meeps*
liten shan@
11:19 AM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
it has been a wow week, since the day i reach kl, everything is like a big wow! cept for some really depressing things, but overall, its a big WOW..
friday, when i arrived in kl sentral, song and shin was waiting for like 30 min max! its good considering a 3 hour delay in train ride. they were shopping around in the train station for hair accessories. song told me they were lost because shin was giving the wrong direction, in the end, they were late too.. it was all good! we were so hungry and headed down to midvalley for breakfast. i treated them c-jade express for their services. *
laughs* then after strolling around the shopping centre, we decided to watch a jackie chan movie, rob b hood as we have a student pricing. it was sooo hilarious and a lil bit touching towards the end. i'm watching the cantonese version and its fabulous. you can listen to jackie's strained chinese. and louis koo was just fabulous. then we head back and got reprimanded for hanging out for such a long time. though its full moon that day, we didn't see anything. there wasnt any celebration nor nothing at all...
saturday, we didn't do anything much. shin's parents has a wedding dinner to attend to, so we had to make do with our dinner. we headed down to jenjarom to have
mi hoon kueh and we bumped into haohao and honghong. haohao treated us to our dinner. then i suggest that we head down to tesco since i love supermarket so much. we ended up in fajar since we've never been there before. it was so hilarious. we saw a huge t shirt and we couldn't stop laughing. weili called song and we headed down to morib. wow, the night beach sure has a different feel. we lit the lanterns and walked around, fooled around.. we headed home afterwards.
sunday is a big day for all of us. nearly 36 of us went down to our third aunt's place in negeri sembilan, another state in malaysia. with a big front, we stormed down to her newly built bungalow for her self invite housewarming party. it was really fun and really, a great time. the food was good too.
monday is another big event too. we shifted the celebration from friday to monday. its our mid autumn's festival. shin and i scurried around the shops of banting and bought all the stuffs they asked us to buy. it wasn't our responsibility but, sigh.. shin's mom is partly at fault. though i didn't want to point that out. what did she do? i'll keep it in mind. anyways, we prepared the food too, i did a lot of moving around. at one point, the chilli bottle broke in the middle of the road and i almost fell to my knees crying. what the heck was i doing? some of my cousins brought their boyfriends and all they did was to sit there and occupied the entire eating area for their own leisure. its just not right. we had an evaluation when the entire event ends.
today, a wednesday. qianye asked us along to cheras pasar malam. so, the possibility is high that we'll go shop around. wootage..
liten shan@
8:17 AM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
back to malaysia~~
liten shan@
9:15 PM
i'm going to the ica building to transfer my residentship proof and am still thinking how to get back to malaysia as soon as possible. be it train or bus, i want to be there tomorrow morning. so i might take the train tonight from singapore instead from johor bahru, because its gonna be so troublesome just to save that few cents worth. maybe, i'll take a bus if the price is about the same. crossing my fingers now.. ahahahaa~~
i tried to get to the head of department and seemingly, he's not around. i wonder what should i do. maybe i'll not go back for a long stay afterall...
the motive of rushing back is actually to celebrate mid autumn festival and also my 3rd aunt's house warming party~ to us, its a big deal and i want to be there! so.. hopefully things works out well and i reach there in time. i've never celebrate mid autumn festival in malaysia for more than 14 years... so its a great deal for me...
liten shan@
10:09 AM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
sinlee called me and woke me up again last night and i headed straight down to lot1 for a karaoke session with her. stayed till 3am with a total of nearly 7 hours
of singing and supper at 347. i didn't eat for nearly 30 hours and now, i feel horribly even tho i ate afterwhich..
was thinking about some stuffs that is happening out there in the other part of the world and how its associated to mr pringle, a clip from you tube..
and vannessa is getting married.. surprise surprise~~ 2 years ago, she did mention she'll marry in 2006.. though, now.. its a different guy she's gonna marry and i'm sure, she'll be blissfully married.
tired.. sleep first~
liten shan@
1:08 PM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
hmm.. a few things to talk about..
i went back to church on sunday. it was all good. nothing much happened, just that there's increase in the population in church. new faces, new policy, new ministry... it was all good.. i saw shaun while buying duck rice and he gave me a shocking look. it was so funny because he looked so different now.. much cuter hairstyle.. but same cheeky face.. well, somethings don't change... jie still do the 3, 3 sign when he sees me and eric, that guy is still as lame as ever, "sansan, not playing tennis?" i was like, omg!!! torture!! i've known that kid since he was a kid in elementary school and now.. still as annoying as ever. same joke actually lasted for 4 years..
*faints~
after which, i went shopping with aggie, chris and jan.. it was damn tiring~ i hate shopping since i don't buy clothes and things i like doesn't really sell in singapore. so, i hate shopping in singapore and with people. i can't stand crowds, noise and stuffs as they gives me horrible headaches. anyways, after which, i went down town to meet sinlee for dinner.. and to my horror, she shops again!!! we had dinner at pepper lunch. it was good and pretty nice~ since its her treat~~ came back to our housing area and had some drinks. the first sip wasn't really a sip, more like a gulp. the adrenalin rushed to our head and left us in daze. it so funny as it left my face red.
today, i woke up sooo late~~ i think i slept for 12 hours and i think i might continue sleeping if it wasn't for annoying phonecalls by *
ahem**coughs* sinlee.. asked me out for dinner though we wanted to watch movie.. if it wasn't for my annoying stomachache, we would have watched "rob b not" acted by jackie chan, sam hui and louis koo..
sigh* i hate stomachaches. and i bought a beer essence hair moisturizer.. so happy~~ i'm thinking, maybe when i head back to malaysia, i might do some hair dye on it. some purple strips at the lower ends and a few on the fringe. i want it random rather then having it symetrical or universal.
k.. something interesting to talk about.. my best friend and i was talking.. about our own names.. i said i wanted to change it since my name is yan shanshan and hers is wu xinli in chinese.. she would change to wu shaotang and i would change it to yan boyu. lol.. both of our ideal names sound like a guy.. mine is really uncommon though since not many people use the word, bo... then in canto, hers will be ng xiutong and mine will be ngian pak yuu... then again, our english written names on our id is gan san san and hers is goh sin lee.. mine is because malaysia is a malay oriented country and i don't know why mine became san..
laughs* hmm.. so, if we had that our name change and its in english, what would it be? gan pak yuu and goh shao tang.. or.. WRONG.. its adyson and danielle.. ahahaha~~ kk~ enough of crapping!! i need to stop being lazy and hand in my baptism cert and change my id. first!! i need to lose it~~~
well, i've been thinking.. everytime i post i will upload a picture at least. something i draw or pictures i took. enjoy~
liten shan@
1:15 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
strange day eh?
its rains today. small drizzles, and i went to the temple today. it wasn't compulsory but i still went ahead. not neccessary a big occassion i have to remember, yet my heart leads the way. i'd always thought, stepping into a chinese temple is a taboo, and all these ceremonies are meaningless. slowly, i kinda discover that, in all kinds of faith or religions, people close to me are still as close and real, and to lose a love one, they hang on to any possible means of actions to recover their loss and to feel at peace.. at least. there, today, i decided to go with a heavy heart. this grandpa of mine wasn't exceptionally close to me. he still cares, but he's not close. but he always treat me with freewill and without restrictions. so, i kinda respect his way of teaching and educating somehow but never wants to share a better relationship with him.
as we left, tears started to fill my eyes a lil bit, not a lot but a lil bit. all of a sudden, i finally realised that he has gone. really gone. you know that kinda agony that preys on you with a sudden and makes you feel the guilt because after all these years, i've never really paid any respect to him at all. anyways, the car continues to move as it drizzles, i continued to space out into the mundane singapore and with hopefuls, i wish to leave it soon.
i direct us to tiong bahru market, its near xca's house.. wanted to call and ask him to reccommend what is nice and what's not. i decided not to cos i don't understand him with his angmoh accented english yet every word starts fast ends short. as we approach a hardware shop, my dad says the things are too expensive by judging a lighter's price tag, while mom and i know by looking at other stuffs, its much cheaper than the other shops opposite our apartment. and soon, dad agreed with the price and bought some hardware and complimented on their services they rendered to us. its amazing how people view things they see at first sight and totally made pressumptions before they gather more evidence. often, its made compared to another outlet that provides a much more self fulfilled criteria to oneself. as we're leaving, the rains starts to pour. its near impossible to get to the car tho its just in front of us.
at this point, i should relate to how simon felt about rainpour yet i love rain a lot. whether its the big storms or the small drizzle. to me, the more the better. as each drops turns into each strings of water.. it thups along my heartbeat to create a much more exciting, more enthusiastic, more power, more rhythmic heart beat. as if its horns thru a huge ancient chinese war horn and cause anxiety in people. it calms my soul.. my mind~~ and rain is makes a person lethargic.. its good.. since i will sleep too...
oh.. happy children's day.. to all the childrens in the world and those who still thinks they are~~
liten shan@
5:13 AM
