Friday, September 29, 2006
*phone rings* i looked at the screen and see if its a familiar number. my heart thumps harder than usual as i was afraid its from the school or furukawa mio always calls me and starts saying, "SAN S'ANNN!! DOSHITTE~~ WHY ARE YOU NOT IN SCHOOL NE?! ASSIGNMENTO DOSHIYO?!" but no.. it was a guy. he says.. "shanshan!! ni zhi dao wo shi shui ma?" which meant, "shanshan, do you know who am i?!" i was really stunned at that moment since i've never heard of his voice on the phone before but somehow, i remember a bit of his voice from somewhere.. i told him i really don't know who he is.. and he says... "I'M ALAN!!" omg!!! it was him.. he's was actually taking a transit in singapore before he embarks on another plane to france... he's going there for half a year and he's pretty skeptic about this trip. he's a chinese guy from china who immigrated to japan. and i got to know him last year.. andy, my stupid friend gave him my number immediately after he called him. anyways, i was so happy.. really~~ i didn't had the chance to say goodbye cos dad interrupted my phone line and he shuts it. but i sincerely pray for his safety as the plane is leaving singapore in less than a hour soon..
hmm.. and aggie told me that ivan has a little baby boy now.. grats~~ i first got to know him at the age of 12.. and now i'm 21... and he has a kid now... time swish swoosh swash... little do i know, most of my older friends are married now.. muahaha.. aggie!! when's your turn?!
anyways, i'm glad.. that i'm still alive.. at least for now..
just tried to call shin and took me the trouble to call her cellphone twice, her home.. song's cellphone, just to locate her whereabouts. damn cousin i have.. i wonder whats her cellphone for.. anways, called her at grandpa's place and talked to her abit.. i can finally attend the mid autumn festival.. its been more than 14 years ever since i went back for mid autumn festival. ever since i moved to singapore, i never had that kinda of childhood memories like my cousins do.. now.. its too late since there's nothing for me to reminicise.. but its not too late cos at least for once, i'll be there...
here's something i drew earlier on this year... click to enlarge...
liten shan@
9:29 PM
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
decides to start writing again.. not all thoughts will be posted.. probably, pictures i took, i photoshopped, i drew.. or i steal..
well, i love this song.. jay's "ye de di 7 zhang".. which i translate directly, "night's 7th chapter".. well, you see, i can't really remember song's melody at first hear, but this is probably the one that i could remember...
i decided to drop the previous blogskin and use a simple layout instead. i thought, black and white is the best whereby, its simple and easy to read.. at least for myself, i like to read what i wrote over and over again.. and changing a layout that can fit in pictures.. so that i don't have to strain my own eyes.. been here.. done that.. so, i'm back to basics.
its ok that people don't come and read it.. but a picture perfect site and my own handwritings just makes me contented.
weilin found me a pyschologist who train industrial safety.. i'm like... ok~~ well, i hope i'm alright though.. its nothing to be glorified about either.. but since no one really reads this blog, i don't care if i write it down. well, i was pretty skeptic about it at first. come on, who wants to be branded a psycho or something.. i don't want to add another medical condition into my health records again. i'm down and unfortunate enough.. drowning myself in my own misery, thinking the whole world evolve around me. everything will disappear right before my eyes just because i say so.. ahahaaa... kidding. yeah, i'm a negative person.. probably because i want to and its easier this way to shrug all my responsibilities. its not something funny or something i love to brag about. probably something which i realy think i should be happy about at least. confining myself in my room, losing interest in everything, lost all motivation, hate to go out, bad sleeping habbits, half a year menstrual cycle for the past 4 years, cover my face with my hair all the time, negative and self destructive thoughts.. i don't know whats wrong with me.. i'm scared or scary.. *laughs* doesn't really matter eh... no one bothers anyways...
having a can of cola.. though i took 3 slices of lemon, add ice and pour them into a mug... still, the quantity is a can of cola..
liten shan@
10:17 PM
