Saturday, July 23, 2005
long day...aww man.. today... i have a long day... photography lesson... and school ends. went to bras besar with my classmates... then met sinlee late.. was almost driven to death by andy da ge...
anyways, sinlee kinda has this thing for someone and that kinda reminds me of something... and i just talked to esther about it...
six billion people in the earth... outta six billion, 2 person just met... 2 person says the same thing.. 2 person thinks the same thing... 2 person does the same thing... 2 person hums the same tune or song... sometimes, freaks me out but all these are highly possible because the higher the number of population, the higher the probability of similarity... sometimes, its not only 2... its more than that... 2 is a simple number to think. think? yes... everyone loves to think.. don't they? i love to do this.. . 2 dots and a dot... its what i call... fate.
God!! i'm in the wilderness... i'm still stuck in the mud... i can't get out... after so many tries, i can't... i tried to kick but the more i try, the deeper i go in. why? ain't that suppose to push me out... i'm exhausted!! i exerted all my strength... i'm struggling very hard now... i'm getting breathless.. i'm tired. i'm sleepy... night falls~ its going to get dark. i tried calling my friends on my phone... but they seem to busy or maybe they don't know where i am.. one of them tried to come but didn't because he doesn't know how to come... oh no!! my legs are numb now.. i'm dirty and starting to smell... lethargy is setting in.. i'm thirsty.. cos i have no water ever since i'm stucked. oh no!! the mud is solidifying... its starting to dry up!! oh no... am i going to die here? oh God!! i need help!! God!! i can't think of anyway to get myself up.. no help is coming along the way... God... You said,"Stop struggling! Stretch out your hand to me now and I'll pull you up." but i keep thinking and hesitating.. cos i'm not sure.. i always think that "bah.. this is a small thing... not worth all Your effort!" at times, i almost give up. i rather die than to put down my pride to say "Oh God!! I know its not a big deal.. but can you help me up?" but i know.. if i don't, i'll die... i'll just sink deeper into the mud.. not knowing when i'll see the other side of the wilderness... maybe my friends are looking for me at the other side of the wilderness? i guess i never knew and will not till... i stretch out my hands...
liten shan@
12:38 AM
