Saturday, May 07, 2005
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i'm going to be assessed whether i can go to Nagoya on the 12th of may and the condition is to raise at least 1000 sgd...
i was quite discouraged by it at first... then i called josh and the first thing he said.. depends on how you look at it... i talked to sandra a bit and she asked me why was i so discouraged by it... well, one thing is because i was from last year's team and it was a team effort and there wasn't any limit... yes.. our super fund raiser was not there but last year, we face less than 40% of our funds raised at this point too... so, i don't see why it should be limited off that way... guess i was too engrossed in our own human effort again.... then i remembered that if we ask, God will answer, seek and we will find, knock and the door shall be opened... i guess many doors of opportunities are closed for me since so many people are going to missions in our church this year.. and 9 of us to japan~ 2 from crusade and the rest from church... i've been measuring all these by all human means and i forgot how big a God i have right now... i've been so discouraged by people this year... i know its gonna be part of process if one day i decided to leave my yellow postered room with queen sized bed and move for full time missions in japan, its going to be even harder... so, why am i complaining when He has given us a test.. the Lord has not proven us wrong before, so... i guess i should really put my small and tiny faith unto Him...
i was talking to dearie today and realised that dearie has left God.. but i know God has not left dearie... and one day, i'm sure Jesus will find dearie again... really praying hard for dearie...
well, the planning process wasn't easy either... sandra and i met up and we sorta decided on the music gig... we are assessing the situation right now and deciding whether to go ahead with that gig or just do another usual skit and bla bla bla sorta thing... we really want to use music as a bridge to impact the non believers and to show them love and acceptance we have from Jesus... we have planned 3 in house parties and 2 singapore nights.. one in a larger scale.. the other.. small scale in nisshin church... the situation is sticky now.. since we have to ask the whole team whether they want the music gig.. then we have to email joyce whether we are allowed into the chapel for that one time instead of the dining area where they usually have their immanuel meetings... we cannot really play music in that dining hall because below it, kenken says it the home for the aged.. so electric drums, yes... normal drums.. no... i was asking God, "is this our answered prayer to our missing drummers?" well, so far, names of 3 drummers came into my mind from japan.. since its good to involve one or two of them... kiwako, shubo and yuji... i hope i can get them on time and get this going with sandra.. we are planning this every time we meet on msn... oh, on singapore side.. we need to get a drummer to practise with us... and also, rehearsal for the music gig.. but the saddest thing is... our guitarist is also andy, and he has project to do... and he is not anxious at all!! must remind him everyday i see him on msn...
so far so good.. i'm stopping work from monday onwards.. hopefully!! gotta dash the last lap!! pray for me k!! Amen~
liten shan@
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