Friday, February 25, 2005
sick, sad and depressed.. also, stressed!!just don't feel good.. so many things have happened to me this year... last year was a good year but this year.. i'm really really down...
first, i was sick.. then i've been popping medicines.. and i've got so sicked of it that i have stopped eating it regularly.. just don't feel like it.. like i'm going into depression.. feeling really moody about it... or phobia? is a better word.. really, i don't want to be popping pills for my whole life.. i'm really scared.. this fear has been setting in now.. no more fun and stuffs.. reality..
school also hasn't been doing well.. since i'm not schooling, i should be happy slacking away.. yar.. situations a bit different.. i'm gonna look for a job... i have been spending so much money and paying so many things that i'm going bonkers... returned josh for raymond's present.. 30bucks.. damn.. i was budgeting 10 to 20 for his present.. and 30 was like an extreme... i didn't voice out my unhappiness but i'm really unhappy about it.. then twenty to grace for night safari and 50 to register for gen12ii.. and 45 or 65 to driving... going to hospital for don't know how many stupid appointments next month.. 33 for every driving lessons... 52 for school reg.. and i don't even know whether i can get into the school or not.. damn tuition grant system... i might not be able to return to study in singapore anymore... i am really breaking down.. really breaking down... i've exhausted all my angpow money on all these... i didn't even buy my beyond cd that i've been hankering for years... really depressed...
i am really gonna break down soon... really....
i went shopping.. more like window shopping.. went kinokuniya.. reminds me of nanzan's kino.. saw a lot of books.. flipped a few on photography and a lot on graphic design.. i really want to own everyone of them but the cheapest was like 20 plus and it was kinda crap.. if anyone wants to give a present.. those books are ideal.. lol.. *hints* guess no one cares anyway... then walked a bit and check out some stuffs in takashimaya for miyuki's present but couldn't find any.. walked down to coffee bean and hid by a sofa and planned my schedules, drew something and wrote in chinese what i've been thinking... then, to the heerens and shopped for miyuki a bear.. decided to do a "I belong to Jesus" on the front and "owned by Miyuki" behind a tag.. and better get something for andy for all the trouble..
lol~ AC Milan won!! 1-0 and Manchested United lost.. Yuuya was like... lol~ so happy!!! really!! i've never been so happy before... he said he wants to kill me when i reach nagoya... he asked my to watch my back.. so cute... lol... milan won... well, there's still another match~ and its milan home.. so, i'm still rooting for milan... lol.. this fella always cheers me up!!
liten shan@
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