Friday, February 04, 2005
hunter X hunter craze!!
i'm still in hunter X craze... can't believe i'm so into it right now... i even dreamt of hisoka, the bad guy in the show.. lol~ anyway, this is incredibly pathetic! why? i hear this from sinlee.. she says that nic tse is so in love with hunter X and
piah the whole show till the OVA series... and he got so pissed off cos he thought he finished the series but it turnout, there are some more parts that is not out yet... it happens in the beginning of last year and for my case, it happens at the end of last year... so, same case!! same anime!! still, i still love hunter X... might take the risk of downloading from bit torrent but its a few GB... i'll die by the time i finish downloading.. so, i might go inti and download... safer than sorry...
went to sgh.. lol~ almost wrote gth... and checked up... rushed there and while rushing, received an sms from frankie, "san! i got a jack russell!!" and after that.. no reply... kao~ at least finish answering my questions... i don't like jack russell... too active and irritating... i don't like josh's speedy... too noisy!! i prefer sausage dog.. cuter!!! kawaii!
chances of moving to yewtee and becomes jiehuai's neighbour is about 90%. don't know whether to be happy or not... my two best friend is staying close to me but by then, if we are coming out for kopi, i would have a driver's license and meet them up at any time... actually, doesn't matter~ lol~ the place' called
the quintet.. hopefully, the environment is as nice as jiehuai's place... though its about 40m away... lol~ or maybe less than that...
met up with yahui today... yakked and yakked... just talked~ good time... i'm starting to miss school... i love schooling, its just that engineering is not my cuppa tea...
AC MILAN!! i realise i haven't been observing football. ought to be spanked man... after yuya messaged me over msn and talked about football, i began to update myself... guess i'll update myself more often.. not many sg people like ac milan... they are mostly real madrid fan or maybe english club lovers... probably because of beckham or ronaldo or whatever... i'm more into serie A... italian~ maybe because of Kaka~ loves him!! but then again, i realised there will be an ultimate showdown between me and yuya... cos he is a man utd fan and i'm from ac milan!! the worse scenario? this month, man utd and ac milan's having a champions league match.. i think its milan's away... and i don't know when is the home match.. but i'm not gonna like this feeling... sigh~ its either yuya or me!! and if man utd is out, that means, we won't be able to comment on the match if milan is going into finals... and vice versa!! aargh~ why do this have to happen right now!!
a bad thing is gonna happen to my life in 4 days time.. gonna have some flashback sorta thing.. i think i sucked in my teenage years.. nothing accomplished! really, times fleets past you and before you know it, i'm turning 20 soon... its not about the 21 sorta freedom thingie or whatsoever, its just my farewell to my teenage... no more teen... get it? hate this kinda feeling!! but well, its sayonara and not gonna turn back cos i can't!! which also means, i've not much time left~ probably one third of my life is spent on bumming around and doing nothing but just thinking and thinking most of the time... maybe~ whatever... just feeling nostalgic right now. its not that i felt like that everyday... sinlee and i once voice out our idea place to tour, her to egypt and me to antartica... 2 extreme places... one is super hot and the other, cold... which also opposes our character.. or maybe, in actual fact, i'm cold and she's hot... i don't know... many regrets... but hey, i can't do much in 4 days, but what can i do? as much as i could...
maybe sometimes, things don't ought to happen but happens because they have to happen and when they happen, usually, things just don't happen the way we want them to happen and when we want them to happen, it just don't. i don't know.. the fact i am branded "strange or wierd" to others may be because, i'm just being normal and not being a "brand" they expect me to be or anyone to be... well, i just don't like you if you wants me to be what you want me to be. period.
no matter what~ i've gotta continue.. continue to exercise my brain.. continue to write and write and write things that i don't know what i'm writing... i haven't been writing and i remember my best entry is the second entry i wrote 2 years ago when i started blogging.. which reminds me, i've blogged for 2 years 2 months... quite long already...
and that east coast incident has passes with time for 2 years 4 months... that part has sliced away part of my heart and it is still aching now... not as bad but i guess time do heal wounds, its just that, if left untreated, it would be infected and it becomes worse... if i let it heal by itself, it might be more natural but with God as the best physician, i'm really recovering... in a corner of my head or heart... there is still a shadow in it though i've really come to face it... i guess just sitting down and when a sudden thought came, i shouldn't ignore and hopes it becomes officialised... i must take it as it is and it comes from me or from God and its not something bad.. there should be no system to it when it comes to spiritual or mental matters... it should be the way it is and not be conform to anyone's rubbish... i've come to term that nothing should give me pressure and i become stress from it... i should let things go... i guess i'm letting things go... this one year of rest has become my rest... to continue a more exciting journey... instead of thinking of accomplishing nothing.. i should say... who cares... accomplishing something is a standard set by people...
feel like i'm reaching zen... lol... i should be more focus on my road.. my life... i don't think i'm self centred... period.
whatever it is... i'm going to nagoya!! i will go back~ doors have been opened and i must do it... in terms of studies or mission work.. i will go.. i will do it!!
liten shan@
4:28 AM
