Wednesday, January 05, 2005
hmm...
something to think about...
idiot's friend committed suicide... and she sent him an sms before she seeks death... she did it and she accomplished it. she is dead.
i told my brother about the sms today after he came back with the news... i only received it yesterday because i don't use that phone. i shrug it off anyway because i thought it sounds stupid. yet, she died.
i was filled with guilt. if only i had let my brother see the message early, she might not die.
but it was too late... she died on the sunday, i read the sms on monday, so it was not my fault right? i don't know....
well, it all seems destined.
death is destined.
i am grief.
not because of her....
but~ many times, the thought just came in and no one was there...
is that why people seek death?
i find it foolish.
but yet,
i tried.
don't know....
i am no longer depressed by people who are not related to me.
but the closer ones are the ones who forces me into a state of delirium at times.
so, who exactly is at fault?
sometimes, we do really have to be kind with words and actions.
God punishes!
a punishment worse than death.
guilt.
liten shan@
2:04 AM
