Wednesday, October 06, 2004
feel so damned...
what really happens is, i broke that bloody blue glass and i am getting the hell out from them... its not the immediate thrashing that breaks me down... its the waiting!
dad is still in tokyo and mom gave me the thrashing already... she even used a wooden stick to struck me and bashed me up... i did not retaliate nor did i show any signs of painful expression... now, i seems to be sitting in a corner of the cell and waiting for the day to the gallows. its excruciating pain seems to be like thousand needles piercing through my heart. the waiting. the calm sea before a destructive storm is tormenting me like skydiving with no parachute! waiting for death...
ahh!! when he comes back, i don't think i can every live in peace man!! its all that idiots fault!! he keeps cursing and cussing and spits vicious darts! damn brother!
talk about something light.
it seems like everyone i log on to the net, there's bound to be a mail from friendster.. what's surprising is, haokee added me!! i haven't heard from him for ages!! wow!! to think that he is still alive and kicking.
yuki sent me and that idiot a mail each. mine's bigger and bulkier. in it, idiot's contains pictures and a postcard. mine? a mirror which i've always wanted from muji. though they sell in singapore's muji, but its 7 buckeroos... i don't want to spend on this. but she took it in and bought me one from nagoya. i broke mine on the last day of nagoya. so
gek sim.. i mean, of all the days, must it be last day? and she send me the photos and a card with a dog tired pop up dog that i, perfectly fits the description because of that tiring noctural animals from night safari simply doesn't excites me at all... and i kept complaining i was ?sukareta??? and nemui ?? all the time!! what to do? but i really appreciate her taking it into her heart!
darn!! i hate this kinda of waiting!
liten shan@
2:48 AM
