Friday, August 27, 2004
stupid things always happens to me!!
yesterday morning... frank missed call and of course, expecting me to call him back!! and of course~ i called him back. he wanted me to help him in his cleaning career... i was like~ hello, i am going to sleep and i can't think... i agreed to help out in the admin part, because, i hate cleaning up!! well, promised zhiheng that i would help him today but yesterday, too much drama!!
eliza and dan ho messaged the same message and we are to pray for cheryl.. of course, i did pray!! but the whole time while i was sleeping, somehow that burdens me a lot and i didn't sleep well.. as you guys should know by now i sleep in the morning to afternoon and wake up at 5pm almost everyday~ so, had a bad sleep!
i sat down watching tv and eating my breakfast at 5 and enjoying the moment... at least for the next 2 hours.
its seems like everything i do, its always wrong!! nothing's right!! my dad only knows how to order people around and expects everyone to be nice and listens to him... well, i did my part and of course, i always do my part at home... at least, i wash my own dishes when i am done! okay!! the idiot in my family is not back yet!! they gets agitated!! and when the idiot of the family comes knocking on the door at 10, i just sat down on the chair and turn on the computer and he starts shouting, "i want to use!!" and he didn't even step into the house yet! and i was expected to give in to him!! hey!! i just sat down!! and he complains that i always use the com at the wrong time.. he says he is taking over that time slot!! okay!! i didn't bother!! cos i just log in... i have the right to use the internet... the only reason i am using the new computer in the living room is because its quick and i can get my things over and done with. he bloody hell doesn't understand that simple logic and chose to ? with me!! i was so furious!! and dad finally says he bought that bloody computer for him!! my dad will never do that to me... the only reason i bought this laptop because my course requires me to buy one... if my course doesn't require, he'll never do that! and that bloody idiot always have his own way!! i wanted a external cdr writer and he purposely bought and internal one... i was furious!! man!! i wanted to smash the computer but held it because i was still downloading some stuffs!! why do i want to use the com during that time? because all my friends are online only during that time!! friends that i'll never easily see... and that idiot sees them most of the time... friends that lives thousands of miles aways from me... but his friends are only a few kilometres away!! how can he compare? that's it!! this is the last straw!! my dad threatened to hit me... hard!! it was not my wrong!! i just want to go online a while... he says i always go online for a long time.. that is when no one is using the internet line!! i don't care!! next time, i will still go online during the golden hours... i don't use as much as that idiot does... he uses the phone most of the time and i usually use awhile... that idiot actually hit me!! i've decided!! next time he dares to agitate me!! he will never see his computer again!! he already spoiled mine!! and i didn't say anything... if this happens again tonight, i've decided to flee from this place!! i really hate this place!! all my anger!!! will never cease unless one of us dies... i really wanted to jump off.... no i wanted to stab that idiot!! he says that i am fortunate to be his sister!! bullshit!! that's the worse thing that can ever happen to me!! if i have let him die when he swallowed the staplers... things will be better!! why did i ever let him live?!!!
i was chatting with nosuke and yosshy!! it was such a great chat!! till that idiot comes back!! my dad never chauffeurs me to school when i was young!! he rather let me be late!! and school is not a long distance away somemore!!! but he rather drives that idiot to school everyday!! what is this?!!
yosshy says he might be playing bass during meta iii... i said i miss the japanese food and he said he'll cook for me!! oh no!! i am now craving for his food!! he is such a great cook!! and nosuke sent me pictures he took in summer camp!! will post it next time...
sigh!! i shouldn't have blogged... honto... atashi wa totte mo kahisi! at this point of my life, i realised that i really do not have many friends... at least, i have two... but now, i can't even relate to them... sigh...
liten shan@
6:39 AM
