Sunday, July 25, 2004
nemui!!
sleepy!! you know what's the worse thing that can happen to me when i blog? writer's block!! i know sometimes my blog doesn't align with my title. its pretty stupid though... i can't deny that.
okay~ here it goes... hmm... met up taitai's boyfriend to pass him the memory card. so, i went all the way down orchard and i was half an hour late... well, i felt so bad because i don't know him at all! and i had an horrible start of the day. cos i woke up at about 3.
took the train down to church for worship service, but i ended up late because earlier on, i was late. so, i missed major part of the worship. today, some global worship team came down to our church to lead worship. the impact wasn't those hillsongs kind, but a simple and sweet genre. it was really touching. tears rolling down my cheeks at the end of the service. nandaro, at least i did not sleep through the service.
it was about this indonesian man who were prosecuted and ended up in jail because despite all odds, he still continue to evangelise to the moslem in indonesia although its restricted. but in the prison, he wrote a song saying that although he suffers, but its for Jesus! Amen!!!
that's how my tears drop.
met up with sinlee for dinner. had a great time with her. i think although we've known each other for only 6 years plus, we became confidante. somehow, like a family. so, i had a great time spent with her.
met up with weilin to gerald's place at about 2315. i was late due to a stomachache. haha~ but anyway, she helped ping in her work and activate the chinese text in their computer. gerald's friends came and after that, we went down for a
lim teh session. lin told me about her family situation. hmm... i think, everyone is burdened with something.
speaking of burden, i've learnt to put them into Jesus' hands. cos, ultimately, i'm not going to make my burden work out, its Him who is going to do all these. somehow, i've learnt not to see things as burdens, but as blessings in disguise. or just plainly blessings. i'm starting to take things in stride and you know, the feeling is great. except when my brother irritates me. like i said, IRRITATES me. so, other than that. i'm cool.
thinking back, i'm really addicted to depression. because being depressed, somehow, i felt that i earn the right to get people's attention and stuffs. but then, i realised that all these only make me feel even more depressed. and being depressed is no fun at all. God really change me in Japan. He made me realised that i'm not alone. i have to love myself. i have to delight in Him. its so fun~ because, only when i serve Him, i can be satisfied. so, its really a life transforming experience. its all about love.
so, everytime, i tell myself to keep cool, to enjoy the painstaking process, to be happy and to move forward. because moving forward is so much more fun than lingering around the sad past. tracing back happy memories and good lessons somehow becomes my mantra. its just so exciting!
hmm... i realise frankie has not been reading my blog anymore. haha.. misses his stupid comments~ well, it might be a good thing after all...
i love Jesus!
liten shan@
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