Tuesday, March 30, 2004
taking a hiatus...
this will probably be my last blog for a probable long period of time.. probably one before going to japan and resume after i comes back from them... or probably one on my shin's arrival...
kinda feeling really lost and stuffs... never liked explaining things to people... felt that its really tiring to update people...
this week onwards... i'll be consistent in church going... decided to put the past behind me... though not easy... but i must be delibrate in doing... like what Jesus would do...
even strands of memories strings back... i am going to just treat it as a moment snack and really a reflection on my past... just hate to be reminded of the hurts and yet remain nochalant about it... decided to give it a go...
i am glad that i found a confidante and a great friend... so close that we're always mistaken as a couple... and that makes it worse because we are not lesbians... just sisters... die!! i remembered once... someone asked me whether i am one... i almost stop breathing... i am glad that i have a good mind that asks many things in a go... so that i won't be a burden to others...
this year is one hella experience for me... yet... its so real... come to think of it... i am 19 now... faster than anyone could expect it...
ahh!!!! i forgot to call beeting...
well.. well.. went to bright hill road and be there for my family... chee was there too... many mourns for the lost of their families... sigh~ not a nice start... cos it was pretty hot.. but... seeing all those relatives really makes me someone real... facing the toughs and turns myself... in lil silent prayer i make in every move i make... kinda felt that all is just what we see and not what we get... therefore... decided that spiritual warfare is whenever it is... it happens... yet... we should not make the most out of it... just be clear... and be in His protection... be in His power and faith... and all will prevail... eventually...
when you give in all, destiny will surely end...
shin is coming to my place!!!!!! yay!!!!
after a journey with the buddhists... i am back to where i belong... Jesus Christ' sanctuary... foo chow methodist is really hard to find... asked dad to drive me there... there... i guide him along... fortunately... the roads are not foreign to me... haha~
reached there and had a great time with team nagoya... we were doing ushering and stuffs... you know... i never get that kind of comfort and encouragements when i am in church... i am always reprimanded of whatever i do... and everything i do... seems to be wrong... well... i am not within their jurisdiction... whatever it is... i am glad that i am well balanced... that's why, although i am outta school... i still want to continue the walk with the crusaders... cos its really ministering... i really learn a lot from them... anyway... half of the time throughout the seminar... i was half asleep... didn't sleep well a night before... nightmares again... but i am sure glad that i had a great fellowship with them... and i am soo looking forward to see them again... yahoo!!!!!
i am thinking of getting a camera... so... i gotta go find a job asap... probably ask dad to help me pay for the first few installments... after which... gotta go find work...
nezha's last episode's on tomorrow...
anticipation~ anticipation~~
so... i will be online... but i decided to blog elsewhere... somewhere where i could really let off steam... catch me if you can!! haha~
oh dear!!!! i am getting fatter...
lin!!! let's go swim!!!!! sometimes... i am glad to have a friend like her... like what i say...
"we didn't know each other for six years only..." haha..
hiatus begins...
liten shan@
3:45 AM
