Thursday, March 25, 2004
Ricardo Izecson Dos Santos Leite
aka Kaká... is the footballer i've been looking for the past two years... i've been predicting his fame and stuffs for the past 2 years... but i just can't find him... never did i know that sometimes fate does happens and i just saw him on tv the other day... it was a match between ac milan and deportivo... i was so elated... man.. i was so excited... i was just switching channels and the camera was just going through the players before the game.. i was about to switch when all of the sudden, i notice a familiar face and realized its Kaká... haha!! unless you have used my computer, you'll never know how much i like him... the brasilian football player is a sensation... i knew he won't disappoint me and of course... he score 2 goals on home... his next match will be 7th next month which is 8th over here... i am anticipating his next appearance!! i know he won't disappoint me... because i see potential in him 2 years ago... and my judging in potentials has not let me down... all of a sudden... he is becoming the next football sensation... but inside me... i am just feeling a lil bit down.. its like the zhou jielun incident... when i liked his songs in the past... my friends find his ugly and stuffs... but when he starts getting popular... i am starting to detest him... i don't want this to happen to Kaká... sigh... cos... in reality... i don't want this to happen to me again...
many times... when a person is all quiet or not that popular... i really like to go out to him or her and talk to then and even enjoy the company... but when they are getting popular... i am starting to detest and loathe that person... its not his or her fault... its just me... i am not jealous... but its just that character in me that i don't like to mix with popular people... no wonder pris said i delight in what layman does not delights in... but anyway... God delights in us... and i should delight in Him... yar!! that's what i should do...
hmm... me liking Kaká is not because of his looks... not that much because of his magical and creative skills... nor his speed... but its the point when the moment he volleyed the ball into the goal... the first thing he does it praising and thanking Jesus... its his love for Him that makes me feel good about a football player... because he prioritise his happiness first!!
also... i am reminded of something... i realise that i have not been consistent in my walk with Him... no wonder my Lord did not bless me... i did not receive that spiritual intake from Him... cos i chose to be alone... i chose to be lazy... and also... i am reminded of my course and career in the future... if i were to take up visual communication... i will never be that good.. because i've heard from that... christians are pretty rigid and stiff in this area... i was quite prepared for this.. but as time passes by... as i saw the works of other students who applied... i really see that i am not creative at all... the only reason why i am branded as creative is because non of the other christians that i know of are really that creative at all... or whatsoever... so, afterall... i might not be suitable for this... but dad says he'll assist me in this area if i am really interested... i guess.. i will see how... let the letter decided my future... after all... i am not that result oriented... that's why i am making decisions now...
which also reminds me... i've gotta discuss my retake with dad... hmm..
shin is coming to town... yay!! she is coming to my place... and her mom agreed... and my mom agreed... yay!!!
hmm... for the past few days... i've been spending a lot of time with weilin... she said we both look like husband and wife... cos we go to the supermarket together... eat together... buy households products together... shop for house appliances together... had supper together and even went to her old place and helped her shift some clothes to her new place together... haha... she is missing tien kang a lot... but that guy has not much reaction at all... sigh~ but anyways... we had been spending a lot of time together... and she has been coming to my place... so, its a good thing after all... since she hardly comes here... hmm... i think i should act more womanly next time... i don't want to be the husband...
oh!! i saw alvin yesterday... was in the middle of the field talking to weilin... and someone keep "ehh"ing at me... and i turn back and saw him walking towards to mrt station... so cute... hahaa!! have been seeing him nearby a few times ler...
i have relinquish my hopes again... decided that my guitar skills are really lousy... decided not to put up high hopes on myself too often...
liten shan@
7:42 AM
