Thursday, February 26, 2004
doing nothing...
i have been stoning all the time... watching tv and vcds... so, i really can't blog anything about my life... but while blogging... i looked at my reflections on my living room's tv display glass panel... and i just realized something...
i have been acting blur ever since... secondary 1... but it only happens in church and friends...
i am a sharp and witty person when i am among my secondary school...
in lessons... or with friends... sometimes i can be cool and aloof... especially when i was in secondary 4...
my last year in secondary school... i have somewhat become a freak... cool and aloof... and also... a loner...
i still don't understand what happened to me... then...
during my first semester in poly... i was getting along well with the coolest guys in my cohort...
during the end of the first semester in mechanical engineering... i lost all my friends and i did badly for my exams...
i broke down and picked up a friend... and that was christina...
during the second semester of first year poly... i hardly speak to anyone... i became cool and aloof again... and most of the time... a loner...
fortunately... i still have zhuyang and pris leong... they were there for me...
i still did badly for my results... i hate my school...
the start of second year in poly was horrible...
i did not talked to anyone at all...
but i still had weilin...
i associate with senhwa, choonsin, yunqiang and weifa most of the time when i'm in the library...
often see daniel... and realized that they know each other...
i always meet up with weilin... as usual... in the library...
finally... i've got enough of it...
i am debarred from a few modules...
lecturers are tired of calling me...
i decided to quit...
on the day i handed in the form...
after i handed in the form...
i saw senhwa... immediately i got down the block...
walked me off the block from one end to another...
i know i'll miss them...
i still miss them...
and the crusaders...
though i'm not close to any...
but i still miss them...
after senhwa and i parted...
i walked to the life meeting room...
jiajun told me one of his friend did the same thing as me and exactly the same day...
so he is doubly affected...
fate...
told some of the closer pals that i am leaving...
i guess...
i miss someone a lot...
my plight is somewhat similar to dane's...
but his is love...
mine is hatred...
what an extreme irony...
now...
i just miss that someone...
sigh~
liten shan@
5:50 AM
