Tuesday, August 12, 2003
Which [Charlie's Angels] characters are you?
oooh... i am sooo chinese... hahaha...
i hadn't blogged for days... and i am not going to stop anyway at all... 'ah gim' is sick... she starts to have breathing difficulties... my feelings? hmm.. solemn... i wonder, why do i feel so much for people who are back there in malaysia or even in US... so wierd...
i think i suffered from nervous breakdown last wednesday... i don't know why... but somehow, the isolation feeling and depression just pours over me... can be pretty scary sometimes... i reckon i have to stop feeling that soon... cos whenever these things happens, people around me will be hurt... i'll be hurt in the process... anyway... i hate school... i hate engineering... probably... i've no courage to face a trial that will continue for 3 years... probably i'm living a life of envy of people who can do better than me... i am living in a world where i always think i am nothing... though thats what the devil probably wants... i just don't think high of myself but i do not like to lose... anyway...
probably... maybe... in actual fact, i live in a dreamy world... where people should have goodness even if their real bad... where vampires go around killing... where there's only darkness... where isolation is always a time of discovery... where natures calms and tame people... where advesities are just blemishes in a person's book of life... where everyone is just who they are and what God really really wants them to be... i like darkness... i guess i am pretty gothic... or morbid? whatever it is... i am just who i am...
liten shan@
4:37 PM
