Sunday, July 13, 2003
LIFE'S GREAT FUN! THE CALL FROM HELL!
yesterday's life meeting on friday is great fun... its really funny... i think i laughed very hard... i was supposedly to scream the loudest... but my hunch tells me that june can do even better than me... well~ getting outta forfeit team is much more important than sportmanship!!! haha~ the time of sharing is pretty great... though grace left early but its pretty fun... the whole buncha people doesn't know dan and i are malaysians... so we made known of our identity... but of course... the only difference between us about our nationality is that he can speaketh ole malay and malay language is a no no to me... i shared about my whole week and jeremy, jonathan and daniel gave that sympathetic look... hahaha... the trio lined up in a row and listens to me as if i am sharing a testimony or probably a real life story! oh dear!!!! i didn't know it sounded so pathetic... but hey! life's great though i left for home later... i've decided to follow the Holy Spirit's soft prompt that i should try to stay at home often... yeah...
today, a saturday! i was suppose to be in school for a IS lesson but i've decided to skip it since the first week has been a hell for me! no more mistakes! i am really tired... so... i woke up at 12 noon and switched in the tv... i didn't even bother to brush my teeth! a tv freak like me is a tv freak for life... anyway... i called josh and talked to him... i told him we had nothing much to say... i wanted to ask him a question... but as the phone got through, i forgot! dear ole me! always forgets things... then at about 349pm... an onmimous call came... shuhui lim appears on my blue lcd screen... i picked it up and i heard a guy's voice instead... i then had an onminous feeling... he keep asking me how am i... and funny funny questions... he then became very rude and said unkind stuffs... i did asks him who he was but he said... "you don't remember me?" ... how would i know if its shuhui's call... overall reaction... i was really traumatized by this call and this call just brought me back to the incident that happened half a year ago... so, i had a struggle... should i go for prayer meeting later... the Holy Spirit just says... "go my dear child..." and so i went...
i reached woodlands and messaged zhuyang... i asked him whether are they still eating... cos i could have buy some food from causeway point... he says that they had finished and asks me to come anyway... after a long walk... i reached there... they just got up and started walking to brian's place... i was not really happy... probably i had not been very happy... maybe it was because of the call... or probably like what my mom said... "zhuyang don't like to talk to you anymore" probably i am really tired... i don't know... but i wasn't really happy... and mister leng stopped me and wants me to settle down before i walks into the prayer meeting... well...had a long and tiring talk and prayer with josh and frankie... so... i decide to calm myself down and really force myself to be normal... but josh did sing a song... "carrying the cross" that sort of thingie... and i am really ministered by that song... i think... anyway... prayer meeting ended and i suggested dinner cos i am famished... i realised when people talks to me and listening to what i am sharing... they usually don't pay much attention... they usually don't give me a nod or maybe an eye contact or just full attention... and i am someone who is very specific and detailed... yet i expects a lot... so, when people do not give me attention... i'll probably stop and put on a mask... okay... we walked chris and aggie home... on the way to chris' place, aggie, frankie and i sang... captain planet's... ninja turtle... and many many more... i decided to join them because i realised that indeed what my mom says is true... not getting the attention when i speaks or walking away to speak to someone when i am not done with my sentence really pisses me off... even when we were walking aggie home... i decided to play and joke along with frankie on the way because he is someone whom i can relate to about funny funny things... aggie laughed too hard and asks us to stop because she is tired... i think this is the most funny comment i heard for many many years... alright... then josh, frankie and i board a taxi home... so, i sent chris, aggie, josh and frankie home... obviously... after so many years... i'm always the one who sends people home... i mean... they don't even care right... i've been hurt so many times by little actions they did... its a no wonder why people left church and cg... if i illustrate the big picture as evangelism and details as discipleship... usually... they like to look at the big picture... didn't Jesus asks us to make disciples of the nations? hmm.... probably i am tired... but when a man is drunk, they usually spit out the truth... onlookers should have a big heart to take in what i said...
conclusion: i am still traumatised even after josh's and frankie's prayers... HEY GUYS! i still need time... but i am willing to come clean in my blog... cos its my blog!
liten shan@
1:11 AM
