Friday, May 02, 2003
engineering maths two... bye bye!!!......... bye maricris.... sobs*
i took a cab to school cos i woke up super late... but in time for the temperature check... i slept at six something again...anyway, when i got out of my cab... i was given a vip look... like there is a red carpet being placed in front of me... haha... no carpets though... but red bricks instead... then... then they were whispering about me... "oh... she got out of the cab... so she must be pretty cold..." they gave me a sticker on my student card and my temperature is 36.2 degrees celcius... haha...
after my temperature check, i looked for my examination hall... i can't find it at all... and i took a detour instead not knowing that its so near the checkpoint... its was a mechanical engineering block 52... where the urbanwire stores the used computer recently...
when i went in... i realized that i sit with my current em2 classmates... and my row's chinese' maths are superb... they are highly intelligent creatures... and i am in their row... cos my row are chinese from china and they are very clever buncha people... next to my row are some malaysians... they are intelligent too... other than that... the other rows are just average student... sitting among them... i feel very low esteemed... my maths is so lousy... sigh~ a guy who was sitting beside me was sleeping ever since i entered the examination hall... he's golden long hair covered his face well... when the paper started... he did his stuffs and slept immediately... then he went off... i didn't manage to finish the paper... but i went by faith... cos i didn't study and i don't listen in class
(sleeps in class...) so before i start my paper.. i prayed to God... asking him not to only to help me pass... but to remember what i studied when i was doing additional mathematics in secondary school... i suppose none of you will even think that i used to top many subjects when i was in secondary school... i used to top literature in the whole cohort... oh do well in history and technical too... haha... though the other subjects are okay but my maths still stays at 50 or 60 plus... and because of maths and home econs... they always bring me down... i can't cook well la... hahaha... my sponge cake became a real sponge... hahaha... oh... but that was the past... though i was at the top... it was not a important cos i don't study... and my classmates hates people who don't study and sleeps in class and yet do well... well... the question is... if i only sleeps in class then how would i know what the answers are... not all papers are multiple choice... hahaha... i do a lot of last minute studies... just give me little time and pressure, i'll be okay... but not for maths... yucks... but!! that was the past... past is always the past... but till now... i still have low self esteem... i know i am not a scholarly type... i hate to go to school... i like to do things i like... i like taking pictures... hmm... reminds me... i wonder mass comm accepts shaowei... hmm... i do hope he'll be accepted...
okay... well...God makes me think... and i try digging all the past memories i can remember on a maths... i used to call it a max... and i did... dy/dx equals zero... that's for finding maximum and minimum i think... oh dear... chris or frankie... please enlighten me....
on my way home... i saw hussein waiting for someone... i don't know whether he is really waiting for someone but since one O six is there and yet he is still standing there means he must be waiting for someone... so, i said hello to him and ask him who is he waiting for... obviously i know he is waiting for maricris but i just like to ask... well... he said he is waiting for maricris and he told me maricris is leaving for new zealand soon... she is migrating there... i was speechless... i asked him when and he said tomorrow... i had nothing else to say... i told him i want to wait for her too... at least to see her for the last time... hussein then told me they had a gathering last saturday... i was not informed... i had nothing to say either... i didn't know i was so insignificant... he says that they don't have my number... but i know janice do... and she did not inform me either... deep down... i was pretty hurt... but i know the Lord is with me... what can man do to me... i chatted with hussein for a while and i saw my dearest ah ma!!! chin siang... hahaha... he's going to be in sp this year and i'm proud of him... yeah... he's a nice friend... anyway, back to the topic... we saw a drunkard laying on the floor... the bus inspectors then came and tried moving him... they wore gloves and masks as if he contracted sars... hussein thought that he is dead... well... many people stood around him as if he is dead... the police came shortly after.... okay... a while later... i saw maricris... we talked a while and we promised to message each other... i know i'll miss her... bye maricris...
liten shan@
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