Monday, March 17, 2003
well... thats it... i am home alone and i've decided to retreat back into my seclusion....
for some reasons, i kinda remembered people remembers things and so do i... but paradigms makes it all so different...
most likely, i'll just follow my schedules...
Mon: home after 12...
Tue: home after 3... will continue my 12 o'clock meeting with josh unless he cancels it...
Wed: dg at five... h&d at 8...
Thu: home after 3
Fri: Life meeting
Sat: home
Sun: service till 1... no cg...
i hope i'll continue with this schedules unless God wants to change any part of it...
shou
i think staying home is always the choice left for me... whenever i'm out, i'm always create problems that will make me feel bad or whatsoever... anyway, should i or not go somewhere else... should i or not gets baptised? should i or not be in heaven? should i go back to malaysia?
questions keeps coming... i kinda ask myself why worry? then, it dawns on me that i love solitary... i like to be living alone... ii have nothing to say but nothing...
i can't see properly now... am i burned out? or am i dried up? or am i just starting to discover the real me??
anyway, i am just someone who should not have come to this world... oh God, please take me back with You!!!!
liten shan@
5:29 PM
