Wednesday, March 19, 2003
a typical pneumonia!!!!!!
indeed... the world is in a mess... everyone is in a state of messiness... and i am in a mess too... i am living a life of mess...
notice recently all my blogs are so pessimistic... kinda reflects on the writer how he or her life is... which is me...
i used to think... life is just about doing things i like... but now, i know life is about doing things i don't like and trying hard to like the things i don't like which ultimately makes me even hate myself even more... my mom just came out of the room and told me that dad says if i don't want to study, then don't... i really don't want to study anymore... but what can i do if i don't? i just need a retreat... but singapore has no place to allow me a retreat... i need someone to go with me... but i don't think anyone had that kind of time to go retreating with me... i need a break!!!
josh compared me to the working people in malaysia who had to come to singapore every morning and work... for goodness sake let me live a life of a student!!! i want my teenage years ok... especially the 18be period...
yeah... i don't know what i am doing... i have no idea at all... i really want to quit... but... reality doesn't allows me to...
liten shan@
1:35 AM
